Let me just start off with the fact that I know this is not the end of the world.
We had been planning on receiving our referral around January or February, but earlier this month our agency said it would probably be more like February/March. That was due to the fact that the first two weeks of Jan. is Russia's holiday time and there were 2 couples that needed to wrap things up with their adoptions before us. We are next on our agency's list for a girl, so I've been consumed with organizing, planning and thinking about the adoption for the past month. I had it in my head that we would probably get our referral in February. I just found out that our agency doesn't think we will hear anything for a few months. That puts us at the end of April!!!!! My heart sank. When I say I've been consumed...I mean, I've been consumed!! I have been buying things off the "packing list", making notes for whoever watches the boys, researching international phones, buying luggage, cleaning things around the house I usually don't clean :) and many other things. I think about the adoption all. the. time. I feel like I spent the entire month both excited and anxious for no reason. I also feel horrible because Brad took the semester off thinking we would be taking 3 trips to Russia during this semester.
I know everything will work out and I do believe things happen for a reason. I really do! But now I have that little doubt that when April rolls around, what if the time grows again. We had this happen with China. Every month the wait time grew. It will be two years in March that we started the adoption journey and over four years since we started trying to expand our family. I am going to try to not think about it as much and not plan a darn thing! I know many of you are thinking, "yeah, right." I will keep praying, though. I know the perfect little girl is just waiting to come home to us.
4 comments:
Oh Jeanette. I'm so sorry that you are delayed again. The process certainly tests you at times. Someday you will be able to tell your daughter how excited you were to bring her home. There is a little girl out there who has no idea how much she is wanted. Big hug!!
I'm so sad for you. There's nothing anyone can say to help you relax so we'll just pray that it happens sooner rather than later. Try to hang in there...it will all be worth it!!
I'm sorry Jeanette. I know how much this sucks. It seems like agencies are constantly telling us one thing then it always gets changed. I understand how frustrating and disappointing that is.
But stay positive! You are next in line and the Moscow team are awesome, they WILL find you your daughter ASAP.
I hope you got my email about the IA doc, I've been having issues with people not receiving emails I send. Think I'm going to have to change email accounts.
I'm so sorry to read about a possible delay but I know Lorien "gets it done" so you're in good hands. I guess the good news is you may have better weather! :) Keep working that packing list.... when "the call" comes, you'll be glad to have so much accomplished! Cheers to you! Sherri Giddens (LH Family)
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