This has been a horrible day! I think I may actually be all cried out! We lost our referral today due to something about the birthfather and his "status". We were on an emotional roller coaster of phone calls, referrals, different travel dates and changing airline tickets (that cost us a lot of money in fees). I canceled our Nov. airfare and then rebooked it because we thought we got our referral back, but it was a different referral. We do have a new referral and expect to travel December 12th. She was born in November of 2008 and we even got some pictures. The IA doctor said she looks good from what she can see and what little info we got. She really is a cutie, but I'm having trouble even feeling excited. We have been on cloud 9 the past couple weeks and were SO CLOSE to finally traveling and then KABOOM! I am terrified we will get attached to this baby girl and then have something go wrong. My faith has taken a beating today. As nice as it is to have pictures, traveling blind has it's advantages. Now I need to book airfare, change our hotel accommadations AND apply for new visas. The originals were a big waste of money! I have the worst headache and red, puffy eyes. Can you tell I'm a little cranky???
Please keep us in your prayers that this was our LAST setback and that the little girl we keep looking at and falling in love with will come home soon.
8 comments:
Oh my gosh, Jeanette. I don't even know what to say. This whole process has been unbelievable. I hope things work out and your little girl comes home soon.
OMG, Jeanette......I am so sorry this all happened, but thank God you do have a referral and travel dates; although being delayed is awful. I agree that it is scary to get attached to a picture/idea of your child to be and worried you could loose that referral too....I will be praying for you guys. I would get attached as well and would be heartbroken if it fell through.
Big hugs and God bless you as this rollercoaster ride is taking you up and down.
I don't know how much longer I can keep telling you to hang in there. Hopefully this is the end of the bumps in the road.
xoxo
Oh no....I'm so very sorry!! This is so so very hard, a much more painful journey than I ever imagined. It is good news that they have another referral for you, but I understand that it is hard to get very excited. My thoughts are with you and your family. Please let us all find the strength to make it through this process!! (((HUGS)))
Holy crap! I am so incredibly sorry this happened... I know there is little on the brightside to see BUT at least you didn't already meet her and have this fall through afterwards and you do have another referral and travel dates. It is EXTREMELY hard not to get attached...especially when you have been waiting so long. This process is brutal for sure. We're thinking of you both and wishing for nothing but smooth sailing from here on out. HUGS!
Laura
Jeanette & Family -- My most heartfelt of hugs. I am so sorry.
How amazing to have another referral & to be traveling soon (although I'll bet it doesn't feel "soon" to you :)!) Big prayers for her, you & your family as you grieve (and, it is OK to be mad, sad & angry!). I recommend ice cream.... lots of ice cream!
Sherri Giddens
Jeanette I am so incredibly sorry to hear you lost your referral. You must be heartbroken right now and it will take time to heal, even with a new referral.
I hope your new referral works out for you, you will end up with the child that's meant to be yours.
Hey everything happens for a reason..hang in there;)
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